My mom loves me.

Mark Morrison - "Return of the Mack"

Crown Heights Affair - "Dancin'"

The Wind - "Never Love Another"

MIX: The Lumberjack Special (Zig's Mix)

(photo by Lauren Troyer)

There are hardly words to describe Ziggy Gurnick - the man, the myth, the legend. He was the funkiest, grooviest cat who ever lived. His moves will live on in all of us, and these songs are intended to act as a conduit through which we can each channel him... on the dance floor.

"The Lumberjack Special" is for all of us who danced with him and felt his funk touch our hearts... or any other body part, and for those of who frequented the diner with him on mornings after partying all night long. Sometimes it was necessary to call ahead and give the kitchen some warning. Zig could devour an entire Lumberjack Special before you could say "pass the fake syrup and pre-packaged jam and butter, please," and then move on to your short stack.

The Lumberjack Special (Ziggy's Mix)

1. David Bowie - Ziggy Stardust
2. Thin Lizzy - The Boys Are Back in Town
3. Edwin Starr - War
4. Stevie Wonder - Superstition
5. Queen - Under Pressure
6. The Beatles - Two of Us
7. Doobie Brothers - Listen to the Music
8. The Bee Gees - Night Fever
9. The Four Tops - Bernadette
10. Al Green - I'm Still in Love with You
11. Led Zeppelin - Tangerine
12. The Beatles - Here Comes the Sun
13. Pink Floyd - The Show Must Go On

[Download here.]

Bundles and bundles of love for all y'all budz who sent me suggestions.
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no smoking count

6 days!

"...it looks like a fist, wrapped in blood!"

Larry: "Have you ever seen a human heart?? It looks like a fist, wrapped in blood!"

I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.

This past Sunday I visited my friend Ziggy who is suffering from cancer and just underwent his most recent round of chemo/radiation. Right now Zig is partially paralyzed, at least temporarily if not permanently, due to a tumor on his spine. I sat next to him a while massaging his hand and talking to him a while and hoping he knows how much he's loved. When I got there with Justin there was a woman (who I later learned was a hired practitioner of reiki) leading Ziggy's twenty-something visitors in a group prayer. We were all instructed to put our hands on his body and focus on sending good energy and chant "I'm sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you." This shit was too much.

I'm quitting smoking. It's cliche I know, and it's only been three days so far but my last one was Sat (08/29/09) morning, and I don't ever want to smoke again. I love you Zig, so so much.

Video: Positive K - "I Got A Man"

Positive K - I Got A Man

so when your man don't treatcha like he used to, i kick in like a turbo booster
you want lovin - you don't have to ask when, your man's a headache and i'll be the aspirin

(project in the works inspired solely by the super tite visual effects in this vid)

moving to PIXELHORSE.

i'm officially moving this thing over to PIXELHORSE for good, which is an even awesomer music blog with another awesome gal. follow us there!

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i recently became a surgeon.

a surgeon of love. <3

i'm in heaven.

beachheaddddjammms (mix)

This is what happens when I get sick and have to take a day off of work...

beachheaddddjammms.zip

1. What Would I Want Sky - Animal Collective
2. Mickey Mouse - Wavves
3. Vacation - Beach Fossils
4. Summer > Epilogue - Alex Bleeker and the Freaks*
5. Walkabout - Atlas Sound & Panda Bear
6. Horse Steppin' - Sun Araw
7. Dominos - The Big Pink
8. We Own The Sky - M83

*Special super psyched city for Bleekditty's track and the upcoming record with the fffreaksss.

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do the jane fonda (mix)

Aerobics mix for Fabrice "a la" Van Michel who will soon be leaving us to return to la Belgique.

WORKOUT.zip

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mickey mouse - wavves

While I'm at it, I can't stop listening to this Wavves demo jam. I can't understand why he left this out. N-e-wayz...

Mickey Mouse - Wavves.mp3 (via gVb)

walkabout - atlas sound + panda bear

Finally a recorded version of this song (previously "Dovers Jam") has come out! It's been one of my favorite jams for a few months now.

Word on the street is, in playing super hip improvised iPod games with Animal Collective while on tour, Bradford Cox came across "What Am I Going to Do" by the Dovers and fell in love with the hook. Panda Bear (Noah Lennox) taught him how to sample and match up the beat, and now we have the lovely "Walkabout" jam.

Walkabout - Atlas Sound feat. Panda Bear.mp3 (via gvb)

love in july (mix)

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07/09 micromix: love in july

1. Rainbow - Thee Oh Sees
2. Fables - The Dodos
3. When I Grow Up (Version by Lissivik) - Fever Ray
4. No Hope Kids - Wavves
5. Shattered Shine (Daytrotter) - Crystal Stilts
6. In Your Wildest Dreams - Moody Blues
7. Being Bored - Pill Wonder
8. Chemicals - The Notwist
9. Banana Jam Pt. 1 - Julian Lynch
10. Cat Grave - Arch M
11. There Is No Sun - Jay Reatard
12. Beach on the Moon - Kurt Vile
13. What Did I Do - The Beets
14. She Don't Use Jelly - The Flaming Lips
15. Idiot Heart - Sunset Rubdown

*photo by k. trolio

(summers are for birthdaze.)

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yesterday was canada day! happy canada day?

Jay Reatard played at the Oval in the quad of Stuy Town. That place gives me the fucking creeps. It's a housing community that has been transformed from low-income projects to yuppie family dwellings and city college kid housing. There were kids everywhere, pot smoke bellowing out of windows, and hipsters pouring out of the L at 1st Ave to take advantage of a recession-friendly free show. Funnily enough, this series is also advertised as family-friendly.

Also giving me the creeps was the old (homeless?) dude standing next to me wearing roller blades and wrestling with a stray cat under his tee-shirt. Next to him was a 10-year-old girl in a wheelchair with cerebral palsy, and on the other side of me was a half-assed attempt at a pit being made by aforementioned Brooklynites who were just aware of themselves enough to elbow and push each other around for five minutes.

The show was free, like I said, and the band was great. They played a tight, 40-minute set, banging out all your Reatard faves. But still, I couldn't help but feel like I was bearing witness to something wholly inappropriate and just sort of, wrong. The icing on the cake was the Verizon sponsorship of the summer concert series. Blech.

I left quickly and braved the Sephora in Times Sq to load up on free eyeliner before meeting this guy for a date to see Todd Barry at a fucking comedy club. I know, I know. Jesus christ, I must be a masochist. Lately more and more I have been looking in the mirror and not recognizing the person staring back. It takes only one trip to midtown Manhattan on a summer evening to make you completely hate yourself, in case you were wondering.

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northside festival happened, like, weeks ago...

...but I never wrote about it. I spent about $400 that weekend partying, even though the 15 shows Nick and I saw were covered by my cheap-as-shit $45 all-access handy dandy badge pass. The highlights included Bishop Allen at Studio B, Bill Callahan at Music Hall of Williamsburg, and The Dodos show at Studio B (horribly scheduled for Sunday at 5pm). Though apparently the L Mag people had problems with the Dodos show, their set has since rejuvenated my love for Visiter - it is playing full blast in my living room at the moment - and has heightened my anticipation for the next release.

Here a few pics of pretty terrible quality, cos well why the fuck not??

Brightblack Morning Light @ Studio B - This lady on the keys rocked it so hard. She was super possessed and in the moment. Her flailing, jerky head movements were mesmerizing.


Bishop Allen @ Studio B - Again the female band member (on bells this time), Heather, stole the show for me. She sang lead for a few songs and broke every heart in the room. Justin Rice was fun and energetic, despite looking a bit haggard and as though he hadn't shaved or slept in a few.




Sisters @ Public Assembly - Although Nick and I caught this on a fluke, leaving the Tallest Man on Earth at MHOW and grabbing a drink before These Are Powers @ Death By Audio (who played there with Real Estate<###),

forgive me, it's been a while.

Happy late Memz day! Summer is unofficially here, and I rang it in with buds over the weekend at a friend's cabin in the beautifully secluded town of Tunbridge, located in central Vermont. There was a nice little group of Bennington galpals mixed in with Ivy's cute local dude friends. Lots of beer, bovines, bonfires, BBQ, beef jerky... You get the picture. There was no cell phone service or internet. It was quite an interesting little break from civilization.
And on Sunday I borrowed Ivy's father's enormo pickup truck and drove down to visit Bennington for a few hours. Spent some time with Blake and his roommate/life partner Ineshke, the token Sri Lankan student/campus terrorist. It felt so good to be back in that place, though I smoked about a dozen cigarettes on the way there and drove about 2 hours out of the way all the way to Woodstock, VT. Partly because I was nervous, partly because I was enjoying the road trip and cardancing THAT much.

oooeeeooo, killer tofu!

The Beets @ The Bell House, Wednesday 05/18/09

i'm givin' her all she's got, cap'n!

Star Trek at the IMAX Atlantic City (in the Tropicana Casino) was a really inTENSE experience. I spent most of it with fists clenched, blood pulsing in my ears, totally aware of my elevated heart rate. The photo above was taken - slyly, I might add - from my seat in the middle of the theater, about 50 feet away from the screen. So that says something about how gianormous the fuggin' thing was. A viewer, unless comfortably seated in the back of the theater, must move one's head back and forth in order to follow the action around the screen. I suppose for some people this allows the viewer to be more fully immersed in the realm of the movie.

For me, it equals hypertension and neck pain. But maybe I should have seen the Jim-Carrey-narrated under-the-sea flick, gotten a lollipop, and just sucked it up instead. The dude who played young sexy Spock definitely looked hot x 1,000, though, once magnified to the IMAX degree. (I wish I could say the same for hottie young Kirk, whose every zit pimple wart and scar were all up in everyone's faces.) Too bad they had to CGI out Spocky's inability to really tackle the role.

Or worse, too bad he dates Veronica Mars.

i'm piggin' up good vibesss.

This is how I feel today.

"She's Goin' Bald" came on my last.fm, spurring me to start reading Brian Wilson's wikipedia page, and I realized what kindred spirits we are, what with the the shared affinity for both cocaine binges and overeating. And just generally isolating and alienating ourselves from others whom we love. Hmmm not funny anymore. Someone intervene, please, once I hit the 300lbs mark.

Apparently he named the Beach Boys album "Pet Sounds" after Phil Spector, using his initials to allude to the musician's influence on their sound. And the title's meaning comes from the songs that made the album were his faves, or his "pets." So that's pretty rad. They shot the album photograph at the San Diego zoo in 1966. I love this one:

my grandpop fell on his face, just like i used to.

Sunday I biked around NJ and hung out with my Momma for Momma's Day, but my Grandpop fell down some stairs and now I gotta go to Cape May for the weekend to be with the familee.This was in my neighbor's yard.

in that case, i'll have a rum and coca-cola.

"Different Class," Britpop band Pulp's arguably most smashinest hit album, has crawled out of the 90's and back into my iPod. I guess this started that night at Glasslands for the Suckers release party when Common People came on and Nick started belting out the refrain with a fervent passion the likes of which has never been seen! At least not outside of an Evangelical church mass. There needs to be a good remix of that song, and I can't seem to find one anywhere. Nick's live version can't be beat, anyway.

So I skipped my buddies Real Estate's show at Public Assembly Thursday to... sit at home and watch Samantha Who! Nahhh, I'm just messin' - I don't even watch that show! Much. I don't watch that show... much. Whatever. I went out with a bunch of buds to the Bwick Country Club and Art Land and Black Betty (which was a hot mess of a trashface dance party), Huckleberry and back to Bushwick CC. Friday at the office was a real fucking dreammm. Ouch. I spent the day commiserating with my cute gay Belgian coworker Fabrice.

But it was RE's last show with Matt for a while, cos he left yesterday to tour (as Ducktails) Europe with Black Dice and then Tomutonttu for a month, which is so rad! Rockstarz... He also had a sweet little Ducktails video come out for "Landrunner" (dir. by Alice Cohen) recently too. Something about the animation seems too familiar to me, but nonetheless the images work really well with the audio. I should really put my money where my mouth is though.

Tonight Real Estate has a show at Santos Party House and Malcolm is going to fill in! So awesome. Not that I can go, cos it's Lena's bday party at Bushwick CC. They also have a show together at the Annex, where (Malcolm's band) Your Nature has a residency this month. Your Nature + Real Estate + Malcolm playing with Bleek??? Hold on a sec, can someone check my pulse? I have to check if I just died... and went to HEAVEN! LOLz. Too much coffee, woo... Oops there's the doorbell. Tess is here, time to make brunch and re-join the world.

Since this whole post ended up being about Real Estate (go figure), here's a track from the Underwater Peoples' Summer Showcase mix that just came out.





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oh, it's such a shame! (04/09 micromix)

oh, it's such a shame!

Last month's mix. Non-stop bangers...

I Know I see I Love I Go - Rainbow Arabia
Taking the Farm - The War on Drugs
Oh It's Such a Shame (Jay Reatard cover) - Deerhunter
Young Heartache - Bullion
River - Akron/Family
I Want You! - Peter Bjorn & John
Love Is a Wave - Crystal Stilts
Boneless - Panda Bear
1901 - Phoenix
Curly Teeth - Micachu and the Shapes
So Bored - Wavves
Sex City - Van She
Beach Queen - Suckers
Snookered - Dan Deacon
Deadbeat Summer - Neon Indian
Atlantic City - Real Estate

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skip to my loo, my darlin.

Watching Meet Me in St. Louis... wtf is the Hoochie Coochie? Judy Garland looks like a baby!
So last Thurs I missed Samantha Who to go see Suckers at Glasslands. It was sponsored by Heeb Magazine, and we got free lil bags of goodies. Mine included a CD by Balkan Beat Box. I don't even know what to do with a CD. But Suckers was great! Nick reminded me that I had actually gone to one of their shows when I went to see Real Estate and they played with them and Oxford Collpase at the Studio at Webster Hall a month or two ago. The lead singer and drummer were totally wilin out. Before they played their big Pfork hit song "It Gets Your Body Movin," the lead singer turned to the guitarist and said "pump up the jams motherfucker!" Hottt.
Sat night Nick and I also went to a show at the Shank that was free if you stopped by TopMan on Friday to pick up a free ticket. We saw These Are Powers, Wavves and Crystal Stilts. Unfortunately for These Are Powers, the power (somewhat ironically) went out three times during their set, during their best song too, "Easy Answers." Wavves was rad! I can't wait to see him at Pitchfork. We totally shared a moment when I caught his eye on the way out... and realized he's like 14. Crystal Stilts was alright, sort of disappointing, because the lead singer seemed like he took a few too many ludes. Seriously out of it.
Josh called cos he left his keys and I have to run them down the six flights and take them to him. I guess it's okay though cos I have to take out the recycling.

NYC has skipped spring and gone right to summer. It was almost 90 degrees out today, and our office's AC isn't on yet. It's been pretty awful.

Getting in bed to watch the Office and sleep for once!

oh, it gets your body moving.

Going to see Suckers and Tanlines tonight at Glasslands. Free Colt45 from 8-9pm, huh?

Outside they are filming another episode of Ugly Betty. The main characters work for a magazine that is supposed to be in the Woolworth building next door, so they are often closing off the area and shooting scenes during the week. There is a shoe store directly adjacent to the entrance to our building, and I passed by before on my way back from my break and they had emptied the whole space and converted it into a cafe! The window said PATISSERIE where dozens of cheap shoes used to be! I thought I was lost...

Took an extra long break today to go buy a video cam tripod from Adorama. That place is crazy! They have this whole take-a-number electronic deli shop set-up and everything a media artist could possibly desire. Anyway. Dropped over two hundred easy on a tripod and mini-dv's. I feel like I can use the term "dropped" here in regards to spending a chunk of cash I don't reallllly have. But tomorrow evening I'm filming this wedding rehearsal dinner that David Archer hooked me up with through his coworkers at Knopf. It's at some fancy hotel restaurant in midtown. I can afford the tripod with my payment from that. Maybe these odd jobs are how I'll eventually be able to buy a camera.

Trekked out to Crown Heights last night with this little purse puppy my boss paid me to dogsit for a week while she's on vacay in the Dominican Republic. Picked up a Canon vid camera from Patrick and Mike's place. Weird area. I felt like I could have been in Baltimore. Or Philly. Not that I have ever been there. But it felt like another city other than Bklyn. Took about 3 hours round trip in traveling time alone, too.

On a sidenote, I didn't know Marc Bolan was dead. At my place on Saturday night, everyone had a good laugh that I didn't know.

"me: i can't believe i didn't know he was dead. i guess i never even thought about it either way.

nneidorf: haha, right

I guess there was no reason to be so stunned by your lack of knowledge on the subject

it was funny at the time, though"

Hah bloody hah. And Nick or Vadim (henceforth known as Vlad the Impaler) kept insisting on the fact that T.Rex was originally Tyrannosaurus Rex. It was supposed to mean something. But WHAT?

Been getting a new mix together. Watch out now.

depeche mode's "wrong" video

Dig it. New Patrick Daughters video for "Wrong" by Depeche Mode.


Sorta reminds me of the video he did for Liars' "Plaster Casts of Everything," maybe cos the creepy guy behind the wheel in this one is Liars drummer Julian Gross, whose image is projected along with the other members in the PCOE video.

Recently, he also did the kickass and slightly less creepy (though it haunts my dreams as well) video for Department of Eagles' smashiest hit yet, "No One Does It Like You" along with Marcel Dzama, and it premiered at MoMA. That video reminds me of everything about the Wizard of Oz that terrified me as a child.

Also, my friend and super talented writer Vadim Risov is in this Rotten Tomatoes video review of "Gigantic," a new Zooey Deschanel and Paul Dano movie. Go to 1:12. Lovin it.

Ok. Now I'm going to go watch all Daughters' Feist vids at work and cry quietly.

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have a fun.

Happy Birthday to Hannah.

dovers jam

dovers jam (live) - atlas sound

See that lunatic chick dancing down the NYC sidewalk with an enormous smile on her face and ear buds in her ears? That girl is totally me.

It's been a few weeks, and I still cannot stop listening to this. Oddly enough, the only lyrics I seem to remember are, "I want, to rip, your skin, from bone..."

But seriously, huge smile.

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i'll be anything you ask and more.

So, 1901 is totally on, totally with it. I've danced around to this song countless times already, and I only just got it this weekend at Hannah's house. They also just put out a new video, "Lisztomania."

Strangely though, all I can think of lately when I hear Thomas Mars' voice (the lead singer of Phoenix) voice is of Montreal's Kevin Barnes. Especially the song The Party's Crashing Us and the album The Sunlandic Twins. And sophomore year of college when that song played on repeat in my room. And the ever-talented Malcolm Perkins' old band Look Alike. (Of course his current band is Your Nature - formerly Frankpollis.) Objectively, I'm not sure how similar Phoenix and of Montreal sound in general, but for me the connection is supes strong. More recent of Montreal material doesn't really sound much like Phoenix at all.

I'm still coveting all the Skeletal Lamping shwag that I always meant to buy but never did. Even those wall decals, which would have made me seem like a total douche. I was digging the whole "alternative packaging" concept for a solution to selling a download. I guess.

Oh and remember this fucking of Montreal Outback Steak House commercial?? Ha! What the fuck was that. It originally comes from their song Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games. Speaking of commercials, when is Woods going to come out with a car commercial? I've got my television set tuned to TBS, and I'm waitin' it out. Any day now...

Coincidentally, I discovered that Thomas Mars is the partner of Sofia Coppola, who he met while she was making the Virgin Suicides. Because of Phoenix's ties to Air, who worked on the Suicides soundtrack, Mars did the vocals for Playground Love, my ultimate supremo fave track from that album. He even appears in the homecoming dance scene of the movie. Coppola and Mars have a baby Romy, named after Roman Coppola. That's pretty precious, if you ask me.

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i don't want for us to take pills anymore

Been listening to this great Panda Bear remix of the Notwist's song "Boneless." It is more of a cover, really. I made a playlist of 195 new songs I downloaded and I'm going through it at work right now. Lena asked me, doesn't it all just blend together? Well, yeah. But I like to look at it as flooding my senses, and then when something stands out, I run with it.

10:44am. I've barely been at work for two hours. It's so beautiful outside. Shockingly sunny and 59 degrees. I think I'll take every chance I can to take a break and walk around outside. They finally turned on the fountain in City Hall park, right next to my building. Happy day.

This weekend is Easter weekend. Tomorrow I'm babysitting for Laura after work and then Saturday Hannah is having a girly drug-filled slumber party at her parents' place in Jersey. Her parents are out of town for two weeks, so Lena, Flear and I are headed over there Sat pm. My fam asked me to come for dinner to Gloria's on Saturday, but in true Darcey form, they waited until today to ask. So I get to feel guilty about having to miss it. I wish I could go to Hannah's, Gloria's, and to Market Hotel to see Black Dice play all in the same night. Has anyone ever seen that movie Multiplicity?? Michael Keaton, where are you when I need you...

My roommate Josh got laid off last Friday. At first I felt bad for him. But get this - he gets paid the rest of the month, is going on vacation for a week with his family to Dominican Repub, and then gets to collect unemployment. And I don't know about him exactly, but that's about as much as I am making right now. I would fucking loooove to get laid off.

Lately I've realized the reason this job is making me so depressed is because I have no plans for my next step in life. Usually I can do this sort of mindless office work because I'm keeping it in mind that it is temporary, it is in order to accomplish a short term goal of saving some amount or paying some debt, until I get back to school. Or until I pay off my credit card. Or until I can afford a first payment on an apartment, etc. So I figger, all I need is to make a goal for my next step. I reapplied to Americorps NCCC for the winter term of this year, and I started in on the hugely daunting process of applying to grad school. I'm consider Antioch University's Masters in Psychology program, or Antioch in Santa Barabara, before getting my phD or psyD eventually. I feel at a disadvantage not having a BA in Psych. Tammy Fraser at Bennington's FWT/Career Devel office scheduled a phone meeting with me to give me some advice. Feel better already.

It also doesn't help that I haven't been making any creative video work lately. (And that there are no windows in my part of this office.) But my iMac G5 crashed, and I just recently got my father to come pick it up and have it fixed. It only cost $90 for a new power supply, but then they found that the optical drive was totally crapped out. This I knew, because it wouldn't burn CD's/DVD's for a few years now, and it barely plays any discs you put in. So they wanted $300 for that. Ha. Jimi found the part for $90 and he's gonna do it himself. Not that I have $180 to pay for any of it, anyway. So that turned into a thing with my parents, of course, mediating between the two. Blah blah blah.

After work today I'm going to Ivy's place in Crown Heights. It's huge and beautiful and the building is super nice, but it's a hike to get out there.

City Hall park 04/09/09. It's too nice to be in here right now.

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pants off

It's important to clean your bedding regularly. And it's easy to forget to do so. Then suddenly you get home from babysitting and your room smells kinda funny, cos you were hung over and didn't leave it for thirty hours this weekend.